February 8, 2008
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Anna Says:
February 12, 2008 at 11:19 pmI told him. Things went well; he did not laugh or kick me out… I will see how things stand Thursday, but I know I cannot be more. Hell, I wish I could.
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February 13, 2008 at 9:23 pmmy blood boils when i think about u
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February 15, 2008 at 10:34 ami’m so depressed. i was dumped 3 weeks ago after 5 years. he doesn’t love me anymore apparently. told me in the pub. i know i should hate, i wish i could hate him but i don’t. he fell outta love, i didn’t. i’ve just had my life ripped away from me. the first 2 weeks were shit, lots of drinking and crying. but this last week i’ve been ok. even yesterday, valentine’s day was grand. but today i realise his just getting on with his life, i’m completely forgotten and now i’m back to square one. everything hurts and i feel like such a fool.
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February 29, 2008 at 4:13 pmwhen i think about dead i get depressed but when i do that i smile cause i’m alive and i become happy. but hey its friday so i’m going to have fun, not really a secret but i.m bored …. great blog by the way
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February 29, 2008 at 4:45 pmi love her but i’m afraid my parents won’t
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March 10, 2008 at 2:49 amI love him so much… he doesn’t notice… I thought I was over him but then we had that kiss. It all came flooding back and I was drowned by love and lust and everything else again. Its just not fair. He has a girlfriend, but she is a bit crazy, he doesn’t see it though, or he does and ignores it or just lives with it. I am so foolish, we are just friends but AHHH I hate it. I want him everyday and think about him every moment!
I wish I had him right now, I love his cuddles. I love him. It makes me sick to think about it. I just want to get over it but can’t… How can one person have this affect over another, its just baffling! Even if I have a boyfriend I think of him and how much better it would be if he was with me instead.
I’m just fed up, I just want to be normal again, I just want it to STOP!!!!! But I know it won’t.
Stupid boys.
Oh and don’t give up the blog, it just needs more press and stuff!
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March 12, 2008 at 1:06 amIs he really out there?
Does he feel like this too?
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March 12, 2008 at 7:00 amI’m coming out to my parents in 4 days even after they read my diary, found out, and told me that “No you’re not. Don’t ever tell anyone”. I hope I don’t get kicked out, because I don’t think I can actually survive on my own yet.
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March 25, 2008 at 7:37 pmI Hate my friends
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March 28, 2008 at 7:35 amI’m so happy to be alone, but sometimes I miss the pain someone else brings.
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April 4, 2008 at 3:08 pmWhy do men lie?? Just say I can’t meet you and more and that will be that…. Don’t fill our heads with bullshit…
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April 4, 2008 at 3:20 pmSo far i’ve written and deleted 4 comments. There’s just too much i want to say but when i see it written down all my problems just look so trivial. So many people are so much worse off. I have a fantastic family, I love both my parents and my sisters are my best friends. So why do i feel totally alone sometimes? I htought moving to the other end of the country was the solution, to get away from all the shit of school was just what i needed. Maybe i was wrong. My family always tell me that i act differently around everyone except them but i can’t help it. I feel like I’m not good enough, that i have to act like someone else to be liked. I wish i could let them see the real me but I can’t…
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April 11, 2008 at 11:37 amMy boyfriend broke up with me after nearly 2 years. Said it wasn’t me or him it was ‘us’ not working anymore. Spent 5 weeks trying to convince him we were worth holding onto to. Met him by chance one saturday night. Turns out he had slept with someone else the night before. Am absolutely gutted, feel completely worthless, I obviously meant nothing to him that he slept with her 4 days before what would have been our anniversary. Haven’t seen or spoken to him since (4 weeks). I can’t forget about him or stop caring even though I know he isn’t thinking about me and doesn’t care for me anymore. How can it all go wrong? I feel like such a fool
January 27, 2008 at 9:57 pm eim one of those pleading dont give up this blog. i come here every day now that iv’e figured out how to add it to my igoogle page as an RSS feed. its the only levity i get in my day.
January 28, 2008 at 2:57 pm eOk, first off, please dont give up this blog, I know I’m not going totally round the twist when I read people’s stories. This site helps me and other people so much, please dont give it up.
Ok now that’s done, I’ve found out this morning that I’m having an affair!!!!!!!!! HA, Ya right NOT TRUE. Fair enough I like the man and he likes me and he said it outright to me that he wanted us to be together but I told him I couldnt do that cause he is married. He respected my decision. Ok right fine there was a drunken kiss ONE time but it never went further. This is just going to add fuel to the flames. I was told last night by my partner that I apparently dont wear underwear when I go out. This fucking prick knows for the past five fucking God damn years I ALWAYS wear underwear. He’s listening to his stupid sister and her fucking prick of a boyfriend who has cheated on her while she was pregnant with his child and now the other girl is pregnant with another of his spawn. I’m fucking sick to death of lies being told about me and that stupid bollox I live with believing everything. I cannot be with him any more, I dont know what to do. Bollox to it all. If it wasnt for my girls I’d have done away with myself last night.
This shit hurts.
January 29, 2008 at 11:04 pm eI love him. But he doesn’t know. He has a girlfriend. Nat knows, he says carpe diem and I wish I could. But he works as an “outside teacher” in my school and I’m, so scared I’d be laughed at and he’d tell the lads for the craic. Then I’d never get any peace and I wouldn’t be able to look the poor fella in the eye…
I wish I could. His girlfriend apparently takes drugs and yet he can’t split with her; I want to whack her head off a wall and make her see how much she’s hurting him.
I wish I could tell him. I wish I could be more than a friend but I don’t think he’ll ever see me as that.
January 30, 2008 at 12:24 am ewhy does he keep flaunting her in front of me?
If only she knew he cheated on her with me. He knows I could destoy their relationship if i told her…………but I wont.
what did I ever see in him, What the hell was i thinking.
January 30, 2008 at 8:52 pm eI woke up this morning beside my girlfriend and I said to myself “WOW I’m so lucky”. I was happier than i’ve ever been when i woke up. life doesn’t get much better than this I said to myself. THEN
At lunch time i found out my friend is very sick all of a sudden. he may die… fuck this shit. fuck this.i can’t stop crying. life is a shitty existance. im going to be there for him. over the years when i was suffering from depression he was my rock. please dont die im crying even writting this.
January 30, 2008 at 9:08 pm ei cheated on u. she wasn’t even good looking. i do love u but i know if u find out u would leave me. i dunno why i did it. i wasn’t even drunk. i will nvr feel the same about myself again. not much good now i know but such is life ill deal with it i don’t think u could tho. i hope u never find out this is the only way i can say sorry
January 30, 2008 at 9:19 pm eciara i wish u would marry me. I am afraid to ask you incase u dump me if u did i would die. i really would
February 1, 2008 at 9:59 pm egod im so happy. never felt this happy before in my life its so great. thanks M its all because of u…
February 5, 2008 at 5:59 am ei lay beside u yesterday morning for three hours and watched you sleep. i didn’t want to wake you because you looked so beautiful.i think im in love
February 8, 2008 at 5:04 pm eHelp. Ugh I am so fed up. But on the bright side I’m not pregnant! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!! God I need to get a job or something to actually do something with my life. No one talks to me any more and I really dont know why. I want to start an affair with a married man but no I wont. I like him he likes me we kissed and stuff but there was no sex. I dont know. My oldest child wont behave for me. I dont think I’ve bonded with her. I dont feel like she’s mine and I get so mad at her sometimes she is actually afraid of me, the poor child. I dont want her growing up thinking I dont like her like I did with my stupid mother. I dont know what to do and then there’s my other child who I play with and have great fun with some of the time. Why cant I do that with the oldest one? I think I need to talk to the doctor but I dont want them taken away from me. What do I do?